It has been over two months since I last posted and truly, I have no idea where that time has gone. Next Monday, Hunter is eight months old. EIGHT MONTHS. That’s almost nine months, which is pretty much ten months, which is pretty much one year which is a hop, skip and a jump away from him being eighteen.
A lot has happened in the ridiculous world of Hunter and Leah over the last couple of months. I got all four tyres of my car replaced for the first time ever. Then, precisely two days after that, when Hunter and I were exiting the car park at Top Ryde, a woman ran a red light and hit us and wrote off my car. Yep. Airbags deployed, the ambulance was called, tears were shed, whiplash was had. So that was fun. I have had the best run of books I have ever read. Hunter experienced the beach for the first time. My mum sold her cafe. I bought a sweet pair of flares (SO EXCITED THEY ARE BACK). I reconnected with my best friend and definitely cried with happiness. I learned how to make a unicorn cake. Meanwhile, Hunter started self-feeding, he learned how to sit up, he can stand unassisted for about four seconds at a time and he made an entire bus-full of people laugh by smiling at them.
So yeah, it has been a mixed bag of life stuff over the last couple of months.
I’m learning, however, that that is how things are going to be from now on. Before I was a mum I knew what each day was going to look like, pretty much. I woke up, got ready, bought a coffee and went to work, worked, came home, made some dinner, curled up with Pete and watched some television and then passed out to do it all again the next day. But now, every single day is different. Even if Hunter and I go to the same places and do the same things, each and every day is completely different to the last because he is different every day. Watching him grow and learn is truly remarkable and I know I am not alone when I say that.
Hunter has been such a driving force for me when it comes to wanting to run my own business, be my own boss, etc. etc. I have always had projects on-the-go, but it wasn’t until Hunter came along that I realised just how determined I am to make something out of my creative pursuits. The problem is choosing which to pursue. Every day I struggle with knowing how to spend my free time when Hunter goes down for his naps. Do I read or paint or draw or bake or write or blog? Lately, I have been reading in any spare time that I have. I have always loved books but over the last few weeks I have read some truly incredible novels by some truly incredible writers that I have fallen in love with the written word in a whole new way. Having said that, I would love to start a book club again. I would love The Cliterature Club to become a huge thing – a national movement where women, mothers and everyone in between are able to meet like-minded people and find their tribe. And then there is my love of baking and food and cheeseboards and events. What I am working towards is to have an event and catering business. I will cover all aspects of a function/party/hens night/wedding from the decorations, to the drinks, to the food. I would love to be inundated with cookie and cake orders. I want to offer ‘takeaway’ cheeseboards that people can order for picnics and whatnot. I have had orders here and there, and more are slowly trickling in, and I am currently giving away whatever I bake to get my food out there and into people’s bellies!
And then there is the book I am still writing and this blog that I still really want to be somewhere where mother’s feel heard and safe and everything.
I have no idea what the fuck I am doing.
(Also, most of the time I am going off like, four hours sleep so my decision making is not quite as keen as it used to be)
(Nah, nah, its more like seven hours now. Hunter is slowly sleeping better so that’s exciting)
Anyway – I would love to do a ‘call to arms’ if you will just indulge me. If anyone out there is keen to be a part of a book club, raise your hand (aka, send me a message or an email). If anyone is hosting an event of any kind and would like it to be catered AT COST, please let me know and we will get it happening! If anyone out there would like to order cookies or a cake, let’s chat! And if anyone has any other amazing things that they want to talk to me about, I’m here.
Sorry I have been away so long everyone but seriously, look how cute my son is.. can you blame me?!